Am i the only one who is having a crappy day or what?

The morning starts out with my husband being in alot of pain & feeling rough like he always does and make a point of telling me each and every morning.We had our little niece over for the weekend and being 3 she is hyper,active.&talks,talks,talks.So i kept her in my room by me all night watching movies,playing barbies & whatnot.This morning he wakes up feeling rough saying that the 100 vicodins his dr gave him on friday were not helping.So i get my little niece ready & i take her home.Then later this afternoon our car breaks down & he is just hurting to bad too go look at it.So i text my sister on her phone if i could drive her daughter to work so i could use her car to go grocery shopping,she texts back sure so i went & did my shopping.(She was at the bar with all her bar buddy's watching the packer game)I come walking in from shopping & her son,my husband,my 2 boys (22&21) all jump all over me saying that my sister is mad as hell at me for using her car and she wants me to bring it to the bar that shes at & walk home!So i get on my phone & text her a pretty mean message about her saying it was ok for mr to use her car.Her and her kids got into a huge argument for over a week and wouldn't talk to each other.I didn't take sides & i just talked to each of them as i normally do.I was especially nice & helpful towards my sister as she is a pretty big woman about 400+lbs.She had her stomach stapled in 1997,& i had mine done in 1996,my weight goes up & down from 150 to 170.This past spring i came clean to her about me being addicted to pills,pain pills,klonopins for the past 18yrs years.Because of it we lost just about everything,our nice 4 bedroom home,our kids to foster care when they were younger but i did get them back and through it all me & my husband stayed together.He is an electrician and he only took the pain meds not the benzos & he has been able to keep his job.Me on the other hand has lost so many jobs i cant even remember anymore.But i have been clean since march of this year & i just cant get a job & i feel like i've burned my bridges you know?My sister has a nice high paying job at our casino(we are native americans)She is a shift manager there & she is a big drinker,at the bar every night telling all her buddys about her druggie no good sister.My 22 yr old son lives with her & she has turned him against me as well.I feel like none of my kids have any respect for me because of my past drug use.Right now i feel like going out and getting a case of beer,i haven't drank since last jan,i knew i never had a problem with alcohol or weed,coke,crack,meth but boy put two pills in front of me!Sometimes i wish i would have just overdosed,even though im Clean i don't see my life getting better.My husband makes good money at his job when he has pills to go.Our bills are piling up,we owe back rent,then this thing with my sister just hurts me the most!I love her more then anything i would do anything for her.I clean her house,do her laundry,clean her room,anything she asks of me i do.Then when i try to bring up how she treats me she throws my drug problem in my face & tells me all the things that are wrong with me.Then my husband,watch come tomorrow morning he won't go to work cuz he feels to rough.Well there are alot of mornings i feel rough too,but i don't have the option of taking some good vicodins to make me feel better.I just don't know what to do anymore.Sorry for this being so long but i just felt i needed to get it out.Thanks to all you who took the time to read this.Hopefully my life will get better.